Memory in black and white

Perhaps it is just a silent reverie, a black and white dream in which all is but imperfect - save for a hint of sorrow and longing.

It came back in a flash, a flicker of life. I saw a blurred silhouette, I saw you.

And then there was more, images of ghostly half apparitions, part me, part you. I hope we're both heading to the same destination.

So I began searching in the deepest, darkest corners. Places we've been. I tried, but yet the effect was dizzying. Some came back too fast...

Some too slow... almost like an apocalyptic standstill.

I went back to the place where our sorrows and needs were drowned, muted. It was a mess, I couldn't find our set of footprints. Evidence that we've been through everything together is lost.

All that is let behind, I weep and I laugh. I have all that I need. I have nothing to fear, because peace is in everything that I keep.

Alas! I'd give that up. I want to be with you once again, fighting the waves and the storm. Holding our breaths, plunging into seas of uncertainties. Turbulent times give me the thrill...and shall I say, satisfaction?

Things are still hazy. But after all this time, after all the probing and searching, my window is still open, awaiting your return.

When the right time comes, maybe you and I can sit under the big oak tree once more. Lost in the thoughts that we share.

For now I can do nothing but grasp on to the thinning thread of hope. A road has been paved for me, but I cannot traverse it alone. I need to have my identity back, I need to feel like I belong here. Before the last tide sets in, please. Come back to me.


LOST. MEMORY. UNFOUND

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